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An Update…Finally

February 3, 2015

It has been brought to my attention by a friend (hi Michelle!!!!) that I haven’t updated my story in a long time. She said, “What’s going on with you guys? I went to WTF to find out and there weren’t any updates?!” Yes, perhaps the end of December was the last time I posted.

Well, that’s not entirely true. I am now an official blogger for Fertility Authority so you can find out what I’m up to in my latest updates HERE. I am super excited to be blogging for Fertility Authority so that I can share my message on a bigger platform and also if I get lots and lots of clicks I can actually get paid! How cool is that? So please feel free to click away and share with your friends.

I also blog on my other website and there have been some big changes for us lately! Long story short, my husband got a promotion and we’ve left the beaches of LA for NorCal. In fact, we’re living in my hometown of Sacramento…5 miles from my parent’s house and around the block from my high school. It’s kinda crazy (I haven’t lived here since I graduated high school) but it’s kinda cool too. Read more about our move here.

When God closes one door, He opens another.

When God closes one door, He opens another.

But I do see Michelle’s point about leaving out exactly what’s happening in our quest to become parents. And the thing this, there’s not a ton going on. We’re actually just waiting. We’re waiting to see if Gabe’s surgery in December could make it possible for us to conceive naturally. Sperm regenerates every 4 months so that’s why March is when we’ll know what’s what. The tricky thing is, we’re not even sure where the problem really lies. Gabe’s surgery may not have any impact on improving our chances, but we just don’t know. Sigh. So we wait.

Buuuut, we’ve also decided that it’s time to adopt. After our almost-adoption experience back in September we were extremely hurt and kind of turned off by the whole process. We had such a bad taste in our mouths after a birthmother played games with us and that precious baby so we needed to step back for a moment. Well the timing seems right now. We’ve just moved into a beautiful new home, so close to my entire family (aka the babysitters) and this feels like a fresh start and the perfect time for a new beginning. Our home study was approved in October so we’re good to go!

Our plan is to sign up with an adoption agency in March and find our baby. Finally. I feel a huge sense of relief to know that this horrible, awful, painful, torturous roller coaster ride is about to be over. When I stop to think about it, it literally blows my mind that most people just “decide” to start a family and BOOM…3 months later they’re pregnant. Most people will never have to cry for the babies they’ve lost, spend thousands and thousands of dollars on medical treatments that don’t work and wait for 3 years before holding their baby. I will never understand why this happens to some people.

Here we are. Stronger than ever and ready to meet our baby.

Here we are. Stronger than ever and ready to meet our baby.

Anyway, onward and upward! 2015 is THE year! It has to be! We appreciate the thoughts and prayers as always. Oh and if you know someone who is pregnant and considering adoption, please please please consider us! I’ve always just had a feeling that our baby would come to us because of this…because of you! XO







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  • Reply Nichole McCure February 3, 2015 at 10:36 pm

    Alexis, as a woman who has gone through the incredible struggles that you are facing right now I want to assure you that someday you will understand why things have gone the way that they have. Like you, my husband and I tried for several years to have a baby. That included a loss of a pregnancy, then a pregnancy with twins where I lost one and a few weeks later the other. We went through fertility treatments that were unbearable and that was where The Lord assured me that my child when not come from my body but through the gift of adoption. I know the same loss you felt when a birthmother you had been in contact with backed out because along our journey we were conned by an adoption agency. Right now for you, I know that there is a whole lot of pain that you are dealing with, but I, being someone who has been through the journey and is overjoyed right now can tell you with certainty that there is a silver lining in all of it. It was shortly after we found out that an adoption agency had stolen our money that we received a phone call that there was a child for us and we would be able to take him home in only a few days. The first time that I held my eight week old little boy I understood why I had to go through everything that I did. The Lord had it all worked out for us and if anything else had worked out before that, we likely wouldn’t have our son. Our son was made for our family and when I held him I knew he was mine. We went on to adopt another baby boy and then became foster parents and adopted twin, two-year-old little girls. We went from thinking that we might never be parents to having our cup overflow with joy in our lives! I wouldn’t change a thing now that I know how the story ends. I want to encourage you to trust in the Lord; he already knows your children and has a plan for your family. He will put you right where you need to be when you need to be there and trust me, there will come a time when you will hold your child in your arms and know that, that child is yours. Someday, you will understand why you have had to go through the struggles you have and you will rejoice in it. Blessings on your journey!

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