It has been brought to my attention by a friend (hi Michelle!!!!) that I haven’t updated my story in a long time. She said, “What’s going on with you guys? I went to WTF to find out and there weren’t any updates?!” Yes, perhaps the end of December was the last time I posted.
Well, that’s not entirely true. I am now an official blogger for Fertility Authority so you can find out what I’m up to in my latest updates HERE. I am super excited to be blogging for Fertility Authority so that I can share my message on a bigger platform and also if I get lots and lots of clicks I can actually get paid! How cool is that? So please feel free to click away and share with your friends.
I also blog on my other website and there have been some big changes for us lately! Long story short, my husband got a promotion and we’ve left the beaches of LA for NorCal. In fact, we’re living in my hometown of Sacramento…5 miles from my parent’s house and around the block from my high school. It’s kinda crazy (I haven’t lived here since I graduated high school) but it’s kinda cool too. Read more about our move here.
But I do see Michelle’s point about leaving out exactly what’s happening in our quest to become parents. And the thing this, there’s not a ton going on. We’re actually just waiting. We’re waiting to see if Gabe’s surgery in December could make it possible for us to conceive naturally. Sperm regenerates every 4 months so that’s why March is when we’ll know what’s what. The tricky thing is, we’re not even sure where the problem really lies. Gabe’s surgery may not have any impact on improving our chances, but we just don’t know. Sigh. So we wait.
Buuuut, we’ve also decided that it’s time to adopt. After our almost-adoption experience back in September we were extremely hurt and kind of turned off by the whole process. We had such a bad taste in our mouths after a birthmother played games with us and that precious baby so we needed to step back for a moment. Well the timing seems right now. We’ve just moved into a beautiful new home, so close to my entire family (aka the babysitters) and this feels like a fresh start and the perfect time for a new beginning. Our home study was approved in October so we’re good to go!
Our plan is to sign up with an adoption agency in March and find our baby. Finally. I feel a huge sense of relief to know that this horrible, awful, painful, torturous roller coaster ride is about to be over. When I stop to think about it, it literally blows my mind that most people just “decide” to start a family and BOOM…3 months later they’re pregnant. Most people will never have to cry for the babies they’ve lost, spend thousands and thousands of dollars on medical treatments that don’t work and wait for 3 years before holding their baby. I will never understand why this happens to some people.
Anyway, onward and upward! 2015 is THE year! It has to be! We appreciate the thoughts and prayers as always. Oh and if you know someone who is pregnant and considering adoption, please please please consider us! I’ve always just had a feeling that our baby would come to us because of this…because of you! XO